Expectations
In the Netherlands I sometimes have the feeling that I live up to someone else’s expectations. I make their expectations my obligations. Those obligations that I impose on myself create a certain pressure and stress. I am constantly trying to keep everyone happy. I myself have created a situation that drains me and I no longer know what I find important and what I stand for. I feel like I have little control. I want to change this! I want to get out of my comfort zone!
Setting priorities
I want to take back control of my own choices and put myself on priority 1. Making a choice that I fully support myself and where I don’t care what anyone else thinks, that really seems like a kick to me. A decision that only I can make myself. A decision that I can only live myself and that especially cannot be lived by someone else. I have to let go of all expectations and obligations for this. By getting out of my environment I can get the chance to get to know myself better and grow as a person. Learning to make choices yourself, by encountering difficult situations. I’m going to learn to live for myself, because you live for yourself, right?
Second home
Well, here I am one thousand seven hundred and eighty-one kilometers away in a strange city. It is not my familiar city, this city does not look like my home and it does not have the same people as at home. This new environment makes me curious. I’m getting an energy I haven’t felt in a long time. I can make my own choices, do what I feel like and I get the feeling that I am closer to myself. I’m in a strange place now, which may soon start to feel like a second home; warm and familiar. I’ve started an adventure where I’m going to put myself on 1 and discover what matters to me, feel where my personal limits lie and find out what I’m grateful for. During my internship I will go through a personal development. Learn to listen to my feelings and act consciously based on my core values.
Tips for getting out of your comfort zone
What I want to tell you is that it’s not easy to let go of other people’s expectations and make your own choices. It is sometimes necessary to put yourself first and do what feels right for you. That doesn’t mean you’re selfish or that you don’t care about others. It means you prioritize yourself. “If everyone thought a little more about themselves, everyone would be thought of”. By putting yourself out of your comfort zone, only good things will come from it!
This blog might be interesting for you too! Homesick during your internship abroad – (jongleren.es)
